Phnom Penh: 36 hours

12 am, Friday: Pontoon nightclub. Pontoon is a wooden boat anchored to a dock off Diamond Island, a small, newly developed island strewn with new conference centers and manicured parks set amidst dirt land plots and lonely construction equipment. It's accessed via a bridge from central Phnom Penh, a well-paved stretch over which motodups drive too fast.

The boat, on which guests can sit at cushy booths that look out over the dark river, bounces with the dancers wiggling and jumping to a techno mashup of American and Khmer music on the dance floor. A tourist from the Netherlands mentions to me the disconcerting motion of the boat. I reply that the boat once sunk under the strain of an unusually vigorous group of drunken dancers. It's true, but I’m not sure that he believes me.

Two bartenders from Elsewhere club meet me and the other intern when they get off work. Pontoon has a vague Americana vibe, but the dance floor leaves no doubt that this is a Cambodian club. None of the dancers – neither Cambodian nor American – touch each other. There are no hands around waists or on hips or anywhere else that enterprising hands find themselves in dimly lit American nightclubs.

Neither of us have been to Pontoon before, but when we leave, sticky with sweat, the moto drivers waiting outside the club call after us, "Cambodia Daily, staff house, yes?". They already know where we live. I have no idea why.

9 am, Saturday: Sorya Mall. I buy a bottle of sweetened milk for 40 cents from Lucky supermarket and ride the escalators to the top floor of Sorya mall. Escalators are new enough to Cambodia that at each one of its ten is stationed a sad-looking security guard staring at the floor. The 5th floor houses several trendy cafes, a cinema advertizing grotesque Khmer horror movies that appear to feature every grisly American horror figure, several arcades, photobooths, an overlook to the whole city below, and shops selling cheap, glittery jewelry and Hello Kitty change purses.

But its biggest attraction is its large rollerbladding rink in which the high school and college-aged set can be found pulling rollerblade tricks off ramps and slopes. To the beat of Asian pop music, girls in tight, black shorts and guys in black t-shirts and distressed jeans whiz down the slopes and leap over the jumps, occasionally pausing to proudly watch the onlookers watching them from behind a floor-to-ceiling netted fence. A group of Muslim women in long dresses and dark headscarves, their hands clasped behind their backs, quietly watch the skaters.

11 am: Walk. I walk a lot in Phnom Penh, and I often do so aimlessly: exploring random universities or luxury hotels in which I pretend to belong and wandering tiny alleyways lined with folding tables where Cambodians slurp noodles. In these alleyways, bustling with vendors selling juicy fruit gum, puppies yapping, naked, giggly toddlers chasing each other, and barbers carefully coiffing their male customers at outdoor stands, the larger city just around the corner seems to fall away.

I know the traffic cops at the intersection near Sorya mall and every time they see me one will hurry across the street, smile, raise his hand to stop traffic, and guide me through paused traffic. I feel fairly ridiculous, albeit mildly pleased that nearly once a day I literally stop traffic. If I don’t cross the street at their intersection, the young cops, in stiff, dark blue uniforms and caps, yell hello and wave.

2 pm: Java Café. I meet up with the other intern and another college-aged girl who lives in the staff house for Khmer iced coffee – iced coffee with sweet, syrupy, condensed milk. Java café feels like an American transplant and sells sandwiches, soups, drinks and baked desserts to a crowd of mostly expats and tourists. We sit near a cool-looking teenaged couple cruising Facebook on a laptop. On the table in front of them is an untouched, giant, heart-shaped chocolate cake iced with “happy anniversary."

3:30 pm: Pink Bubble Tea. Enticed by the windowless shop’s sparkly, pink façade (how can we resist?), we shuffle through its circular door into a bright prink space in which young men in black pants and shirts and big, pink, floppy hats serve us sickly sweet, candy-colored milk tea.

4:30 pm: Cine Luxe. The cinema, one of only a few in Phnom Penh, has one screen and shows a different movie every week or so, rolling out a giant banner advertising the new film each time it changes. For the past seven weeks it has been a horror movie, as the Khmer film industry appears to only consist of bloody films in which attractive teenagers are attacked by every tried-and-true trope of the horror genre: hanged, vengeful women, murderous children with heads that swivel, and walking corpses carrying axes.

This week, the theater shows what seems to be a Malaysian film of ambiguous genre, dubbed in Khmer. Tickets to the movie are 6,000 riel (1.50) and are purchased at an outdoor booth next to a cart selling mentos, chips, and sour mango slices. We’re directed into an enormous auditorium-looking theater with a curtain that is drawn back to reveal a movie screen on which we can see the controller scrolling through a DVD menu. The movie is preceded by three Bollywood music videos, followed by previews for the aforementioned Khmer horror movies, all of which are narrated by the same booming, megaphonish male voice that also insists that cell phones be turned off.

I have no understanding of the plot of the feature film, which has a strange affinity for odd and unnecessary camera angles. It begins by introducing a flamboyant, skinny, male character whom I assume is supposed to be gay, but who is later inexplicably married to the film’s leading lady – some kind of gangster girl – and is obviously perturbed when his new bride refuses his sexual advances, meowing coyly in his purple, silk robe as he tries to tempt her into bed. Eventually, he gets what he wants. There is also a very tense scene in which rival gangs wield durian fruit as a weapon.

11 pm: Riverhouse nightclub. In a packed second-floor space, ultra-cool expats and Cambodians dance to American hip hop, and Western men gleefully flirt with pretty Khmer women.

9 am, Sunday: Orussey market. One the way to the market, I see a moto driver with perhaps thirty ducks somehow strapped together so that they hang in one giant, feathery clump around his bike. At first I assume they must already have been slaughtered, but then notice their long necks moving as if trying to get a bit more comfortable. They look unconcerned.

Approaching the market, I can see rows and rows of glazed, headless pigs strung up from stalls, big, grey fish nestled in pans of ice, and naked, dead ducks lined up on tables, and feel sorry for the quiet, oblivious animals strapped to the moto next to me.

Orussey market looks like a converted warehouse or parking garage. The lower floor is crammed with hundreds of noisy sellers selling practical items - like car parts, irons, fans, and shampoo - as well as meat, produce, breads, and packaged snacks. The second floor is stuffed with stalls full of notebooks, posters, books, and pens, and on the third floor sellers hawk their shoes – advertized on dismembered-looking plastic feet – fabrics, and clothes. One stall is selling framed photographs- mostly of Asian politicians - except for one of Osama Bin Laden looking wistfully into the distance.

I buy a Thai boy band poster for 50 cents, and, as usual, try to stealthily snap pictures of tailors stitching sparkly fabric into Khmer formalwear and schoolchildren thumbing through English lesson books. When I check the monitor, not only are the vendors and buyers looking at my camera, they’re smiling and waving. As I leave, the power flicks out, and the warehouse-like market goes unnervingly dark. The vendors, unperturbed, switch on little backup lights.

12 pm: One of the guys who works at the staff house unrolls my boy band poster and is obviously amused. He repeatedly bests me at khmer tic tac toe (“cross”) until an explosion stops us pencils in midair and we look at each other in curious surprise. A moment of recognition that something has just blown up suddenly registers on his face, and he, after politely but hurriedly pausing to apologize and gesture “be right back,” leaps up and bounds up the stairs two at a time. My friend’s air conditioner had exploded. She’s fine.

Letters from Angkor

We arrive in Siem Reap city mid-afternoon at a tiny bus station at which we are clearly given special treatment as foreigners. Men working at the bus station pull two plastic chairs out of a corner and usher us to sit, gently wresting our bags from us and depositing them around our chairs. The Cambodians who have gotten off the bus are leaning against the walls or sitting on their luggage.

A bus station employee soon calls us a tuk tuk to the hotel and hops in with us. “Welcome to my country,” he says politely, placing his hand over his heart. “I am a Cambodian,” he adds, as though expecting that we might be charmed by this information. A little sign pasted on corner of the tuk tuk futilely begs: “Responsible tourists welcome! Stop sex tourism!” The signs appear all over Phnom Penh too, as stickers, billboards, and pamphlets.

Siem Reap, which has the vague feel of a resort town, is the third largest city in Cambodia. It is also by far the country’s most affluent city, largely due to its immediate proximity to the Angkor ruins, which draw roughly 2 million tourists from around the world each year to Siem Reap’s hundreds of luxury hotels, trendy restaurants, and beggar-free streets lined with boutiques and galleries. There are few motorbike drivers in Siem Reap, likely because there is no market for them amongst the tuk tuk drivers that are the norm for tourists. The tuk tuk drivers in Siem Reap, are less aggressive – less desperate – than they are in Phnom Penh. For a Siem Reap tuk tuk driver, when a tourist shakes his head, no, I don’t want a tuk tuk, it’s not a problem. There’s another lost tourist just behind him.

Just before sunset, we take a tuk tuk to the oldest temple in the Angkor complex. With thousands of other tourists, we plod up a forested path circling the mountain, and then, at the top, scramble up the nearly vertical, crumbling steps, grasping for support the thousand-year-old stone lions who gaze out over the sweeping views of glistening rice patties and forests dark green in the purpling light.

Seated on the stonewalls surrounding the temples main terrace, we, and what seem like representatives from all the world’s countries, watch the sun slip into the rice paddies that meet the horizon and smear the streaky clouds pink and purple. “Everyone hates each other for being here right now,” whispers the other intern.

Near the parking lot several boys – some our age, some just children – are trailing after visitors selling tour books from plastic containers. “Lady! You buy from me! Need book?” “Soum doh, aw khun.” “You buy from me! 10 dollars!” “Sorry, no thanks.” “Okay! 5 dollars!” “No, thanks” “Okay! One dollar!” “No, really, thanks.” “Okay! Free!” “What?” “Free for looking!” “Um?” “Why do you want for free?! Why don’t you buy,” says one guy, clearly amused by his game. I ask one of the little boys who sent him here to sell books. He says, “tourism.”

We’re up at 3:30 am the next morning and take a tuk tuk to Angkor Wat, the most famous of the Angkor temples – so famous, that the entire Angkor complex, which consists of dozens of large and small temple build at different times and at significant distances from one another - is often simply called Angkor Wat. It’s still dark as we approach the temple, and the three iconic towers of its outer gates, seen from across the now black lake, look eerily solemn, barely distinguishable from the thick backdrop of tall trees.

The moto driver leaves us at the ticket collector at the bridge arching over the lake to the outer gates, through which is a massive muddy courtyard with two symmetrical libraries and a small pond laid before the inner gates of Angkor Wat. At sunrise, in the pink light, the three towers of Angkor Wat appear perfectly reflected in the still pond.

In Beijing, I was often stopped by Chinese who wanted to take a picture with me, a 5'10" foreign woman, a pale, blue-eyed, and lanky anomaly. The Chinese tourists find me in Angkor Wat. Walking up the stairs in the soft morning light of one of Angkor Wat’s inner chambers, I hear a Chinese couple whispering in Chinese and anticipate the familiar tap on the shoulder - "can we take your photo?" “From China?” I ask. “Yes, how did you know?” says the husband, arranging me next to his beaming wife. Later, in the highest temple in Angkor Wat, ascended from the center terrace by a long, nearly vertical staircase and from which you can look out over the entire complex, three Chinese tourists move me around as they try to find the best light before finally swinging their arms around me for the camera. Yes. For one moment, I’m more fascinating than Angkor Wat.

Though it's very early in the morning, there are perhaps hundreds of tourists already moving through the temple. But in the cavernous spaces and hidden corridors of Angkor Wat, and in a seemingly agreed upon general silence, each tourist seems to disappear to one another. There are times that I find myself alone in the silence of one of the long hallways that wrap around the temple, in which scenes from Hindu mythology – clawed monkey warriors battling fanged dragons; soldiers standing on the backs of elephants, waving spears - are delicately carved out of the walls and seem to move in the strange shadows of the weak, ethereal light.

In Transit

The bus to Siem Reap leaves at 7:30 from a makeshift, noisy bus station at the corner of two streets in central Phnom Penh crowded with sellers hawking water bottles, loaves of bread, and packaged snacks to travelers stuffing their luggage under buses. Female bus company employees are selling tickets for 18,000 riel ($4.50) from behind a tall desk, in front of which are handwritten timetables plastered on the wall.

The bus looks like an American tour bus – the kind used for long field trips back in high school – except a little smaller. As soon as it starts rolling north through the early morning rush of Phnom Penh, the TV at the front of the bus is flicked on and begins to show Khmer music videos at blasting volume. Most of the videos, which are home-movie quality, feature forlorn looking female artists flashbacking to the lovely days they used to have with their estranged lovers, who are shown pacing about looking equally morose about the separation.

In one video, a young village woman says goodbye to her boyfriend as he speeds off on his motorcycle, bound for some unknown location that perhaps the Khmer lyrics disclose. While she sits mournfully in the door frame of her home, two white men stop her lover along a dirt road, steal his motorcycle, and shoot him the head. In the next frame, she stumbles upon his body, waggles his head back in forth, and is shown weeping over him for a good two minutes.

Past the bridge at the northernmost end of Phnom Penh, the city gives way to still fairly urban houses and shops set on brownish-red dirt. Construction equipment sits idle in the early morning hour. Most of the vendors at the side of the road are selling all kinds of hats.

Shortly before a sign reading “Now entering Kompong Cham” province, the picture outside the window dissolves into rural Cambodia. Bright green fields stretching further than the eye can see – their vast openness interrupted only by tall palm tree-like trees and farmers with their heads wrapped in kormas (traditional red and white checkered scarves) – are interspersed with villages, wooden or thatched houses sitting on tall stilts.

For the six hour ride, I watch snapshots of single moments flash outside the window: People sitting in the shade on wooden beds or hammocks under their homes; bony, white cattle nuzzling their noses into tall piles of hay; a young boy drying off a toddler next to a rice paddy; young men playing volleyball in a dusty, open space; dozens of women with bins of the same round, spiky, green fruit, impassive at the side of the road; a tiny boy on a bicycle far too big peddling off the main road down a dirt lane I wish I could follow.

Somewhere in Kompong Thom province, the music videos switch off.

Strung up on many structures is the same advertisement for Sunsilk shampoo. Blue, wooden signs for the Cambodian People’s Party (the ruling party) appear regularly, sometimes with “people” spelled creatively (albeit phonetically) as “peopel.” Most of the homes have the same sort of staircase attached to their door-less entryway. Where one home has been pulled down, just the white and blue staircase remains, ascending to nowhere.

The bus stops at a few provincial stations, and occasionally at seemingly random homes or shops to pick up or drop off single passengers, who, after swinging their baggage into the under-compartment, have to jog to board the bus as it starts to pull away. It also stops twice for twenty minutes at the Cambodian version of the highway rest-stop: a large pavilion with one restaurant selling inexpensive Khmer food - like thick goose egg omelets with white rice - that customers take to eat at one of the pavilion’s nicely laid tables. On the pavilion’s outskirts sit vendors selling packaged snack food, sweat bread, fruit, boiled eggs, fried insects, and steamed buns - which, on the ride home, give me food poisoning and lead to a rather unfortunate incident the next day in which I throw up while on a moving motorcycle.

A beggar wanders amidst the stalls, attaching himself to buyers and hoping for their change. Along the dirt path leading to a bathroom tucked behind the pavilion, small beggar girls clamor for money. One woman gives a dollar to the first child, but waves away the next girls reaching out their tiny hands. As we climb on the bus, a man missing a leg – assumedly a land mine victim – has seated himself in the dust on a bit of cardboard by the bus door. To each person boarding the bus he smiles and extends his grey baseball cap. When the bus doors close he pockets the money, slaps his cap back on, picks up his cardboard, and hobbles away.

Monsoon

“I know this is irrational, but on the way back home today, were you…?” asks the other intern, who arrived at the Daily house off a moto shortly after I did.

“Convinced that I was going to be electrocuted? Yes.”

It’s absolutely pouring rain when I file my story one evening, and I hang around the office, peering out into the darkness at the noisy streets through the barred windows rattling in the deafening storm, hoping for a sign that rain is letting up. When it has slowed to a drizzle I head out with one of the office’s moto drivers who I ride home with nearly everyday, ready to brave one of the obvious downsides of riding a motobike.

Inconveniently, it starts to downpour as soon as we make it only a few minutes down Norodom – one of Phnom Penh’s main roads - where traffic is nearly at a standstill in the flooded street. Men in plastic ponchos are strolling down the sidewalks, thrusting sticks into the water to poke at the clogged drains.

The driver I’m riding with veers off the main drag, hoping to take side streets instead, but at the end of each street is a gaping lake of a puddle that forces him to turn around and try another. Eventually, he reluctantly putters back to Norodom, saying something to me in Khmer (he doesn’t speak English) and half-laughing to himself, maybe at the ridiculousness of his evening.

On Norodom, moto drivers, stopping at red lights to drop their calves into the streaming water, weave their motorcycles through stopped cars and trucks, whose frustrated drivers rest their elbows on their horns. Along one stretch, with traffic at a complete stop, moto drivers get resourceful, rolling their bikes out of traffic and onto the sidewalk, where they work their way around evenly spaced skinny trees and bob along on the uneven cobblestones. My driver follows suit, pausing once on the sidewalk to shove up his pant-legs to his knees in preparation for the inevitable return to the road.

At the next intersection, the sidewalk ends, and a mass of moto drivers pose hesitantly at the edge of the sidewalk, contemplating the depth of the water pooling below. One brave driver gently nudges his bike off the sidewalk, landing in the water with a heavy plop and a splash, and the rest of the drivers, like baby ducks stumbling off a dock into the pond, follow with surprising order.

My driver, poised at the brink, looks nervously from the sidewalk to the flooded road, and then back again, and in my head I beg him not to, though the alternative is to sit brooding on the sidewalk until the rain stops and the road drains out. I try my very hardest to look totally unfazed – like all the other Khmers looking wet and bored on the backs of motorcycles – as the motorcycle bounces off the sidewalk and as I try not to fall into the river/road.

Observing that the metal fuel tank attached to the side of the bike is casually resting in the swelling water, I’m quite certain that, like the 74 people whose deaths by lightening the Cambodia Daily has reported on this year, I’m going to be electrocuted. When the moto driver drops me safely, albeit sopping wet, at the Daily house, I pay him double, mostly because I feel completely awful that he has to trek his way back to the office to pick up the next marooned reporter.

Another day, at a party on a boat, I mind the rain much less. On the Tonle Sap River, under thick swaths of purple clouds and a cool mist, I sit with a Khmer reporter friend on the top deck with my legs swung over the railing at the boat’s front and watch it pour in Phnom Penh.

A Bad Romance

“I survived Cambodia,” quips a yellow T-shirt that a sweaty vendor gazing blankly into traffic sells from her stall. Yes, all you eternal optimists back home who wished me luck wading through thickly grown over fields dotted with unseen landmines, the Cambodians are in on your joke.

In a cavernous TV station that - with its dirty cement floors, high raftered ceilings, and smoggy cloud of mosquitoes, cigarette smoke, and dust - has the feel of an abandoned warehouse, five other foreigners and I worm our way onto metal bleachers opposite a boxing ring. We are the only non-Cambodians present, and everyone seated in the bleachers snaps their heads to watch us settle in our seats.

Every Friday and Saturday night, the TV Station broadcasts live kickboxing from the dimly lit space, in which hundreds of Cambodians crowd around an elevated ring and cram into creaky bleachers set against the walls. Most are men, though there are some tired-looking wives carrying their wide-eyed babies, who gape at us over their mothers’ shoulders. Little boys mock fight and chase each other around the space, nawing at corncobs from plastic baggies.

Two fighters enter the ring – one in blue shorts and gloves, and another dressed in the red. They pace serenely around the ring, pressing their hands in prayer position and bowing their heads to each of its corners. As they warm up in the ring, the guys I’m with size them up and bet the girls the blue fighter will win, mostly because they don’t like the red fighter’s slick, spiky hair.

With an undetectable nod of yes, let’s begin now, the two fighters begin to circle around one another. A small orchestra of pounding drums and some sort of woodwind instrument sits on the overlooking stage with the newscasters.

The fighters step in time to the music, always seeming to come to a strange pas de deux with their arms clasped around one another as though hugging, while desperately jerking their knees at each other’s sides and thighs.

“It looks like Red is in trouble,” mutters the other intern, who is sitting next to me, as Blue pins his opponent to the side of the ring and slugs him until the referee shoves them apart and back to the center of the ring.

When a bell dings, the two fighters’ aides (probably not the technical term) rush to them, pick them up, and carry them two feet to stools on opposite ends of the ring (why they cannot walk these two feet is a mystery to me). Their fighters seated on the stools, the aides rapidly massage their sweaty thighs and stomachs, pour water over their heads and in, again, for reasons I can’t discern, their shorts, and send them back to the ring’s center.

The fighting gets more aggressive as time goes on, and things take a turn in Red’s favor, who, small and spry, nails kicks to Blue’s head that send visible sprays of sweat into the cloudy air and make the men gathered around the ring yell with approval.

When the second bell dings, and the fighters are again lifted back to their stools, blood dribbles out of Blue’s mouth as his aide whips out his mouth-guard to furiously scrub it clean and then pop it back in.

With the drum beat increasing in tempo, the men yelling louder and louder, and the fighters, with nothing left to lose, seemingly in it to knock one other unconscious, it’s impossible not to get sucked in. When the referee collects the white slips of paper from the on-looking judges, two of whom are seated on each side of the ring, and swings up spiky-haired Red’s arm in victory, the girls cheer as though personally responsible for his win.

The next night, I’m on a stool at the bar waiting for two friends at a trendy lounge at which patrons can sit on bed-like cushions surrounding a gleaming pool when Lady Gaga’s “Bad Romance” comes on the speakers.

The Spanish tourists who have been splashing each other in the pool squeal, leap out, and start wiggling to the beat. The Asian couple sitting behind me start to sway in rhythm. The British woman next to me gasps in excitement and begins to dance in her seat. The Cambodian bartender with whom I’m playing tic tac toe and thumb war (apparently, these are cross cultural games) nods his head to the music and smiles.

“You like Lady Gaga?” “Yes, everyone does!” The other bartenders – all twenty something men– nod enthusiastically in agreement. They play Lady Gaga songs for the next hour. I may just have to stay in Cambodia.

Though, for those who would rather dunk their heads into the pool when they hear Lady Gaga’s music than jump out and dance to it, this evening may have been legitimate cause to buy an “I survived Cambodia” shirt.

Blind as a Bat

“Did you take the blind moto driver to work?”

“Yes?”

“Did you notice that he was blind?” asks the assignment editor, who has just arrived at the office off his own motorcycle. It’s morning and I’m sitting at my desk next to a Chinese-Cambodian reporter with whom I swap mango-flavored milk candy for sour young mango slices dipped in a chili mixture.

I did notice. To be fair, I’m fairly certain that he has at least one functional eye, and there was nothing about his driving that suggested he was unaware of the other motobikes rocketing across our path at intersections. As the other intern and I sped with him on his motorcycle to work we were less concerned about his one obviously ruined eye than we were with the unusually small size of his bike’s seat, on which we were cramped and uncomfortable.

“Tall intern, don’t take the blind driver to work.”

It’s my day off from work today and a moto driver with two functioning eyes takes me to the National Library. The ride takes me past the Anti-Corruption Institution and a stove-sized metal box attached to its gates, which I noticed for the first time today, that reads “Complaint Box.”

The National Library, a yellow and white French colonial building, sits at the northern most end of Phnom Penh across from the US embassy with its enormous grey gates (but not as big as the forbidding gates that would surprise even Harry Potter fortressing the much-loathed Thai embassy). A dusty courtyard, where patrons park their motorcycles and vendors set up under scrawny trees sell sandwiches on French baguettes to students in blue or white button-up shirts, accesses the library. A red truck parked out front is crammed with crates filled with glass bottles of coca cola.

Inside, the library is one large room with pale yellow walls, a high ceiling, and whirring ceiling fans. Random books – Charles Baudelaire, Cleopatra-themed romance novels, UNESCO documents– in Khmer, French, English, and German that seem to be organized in no discernable order sit on tall wooden shelves in the back of the room. I pick up a book of collected National Geographic articles, which, for whatever reason, the library has over ten copies of, and slip into a chair at one of the long wooden tables that run horizontally across the room.

A student in a white button down is sitting to my left with her boyfriend and a pile of notes. She has thick lips and looks like a Cambodian Angelina Jolie, the much-beloved actress who glowers at me from a supersized photo advertising haircuts at a beauty salon near the Daily office. An orange kitten, with the tall, pointy ears that all cats in Cambodian seem to have, surprises me by curling around my legs.

At around eleven most of the students trickle out of the library and I follow, determined to use my extremely underdeveloped navigation skills to get to Lucky supermarket in Sorya mall. I wander south, first down a road that seems to be under-construction (note: the stereotype about construction workers is true everywhere). As I walk, I occasionally stop to take pictures of the whir of the hot, afternoon streets. I think that I’m being super stealthy with my camera, but when I return to the Daily house and click through my pictures I realize that everyone in them is starring at me. It looks as if I stood on the sidewalk and yelled into traffic for everyone to stop and smile for my camera.

Lucky Supermarket looks every bit like an American supermarket, except instead of selling raspberry yogurt it sells yogurt with nata de coco or lychee. Both Cambodian and expat families carrying red shopping baskets stroll down its bright aisles, reading the ingredient list on the backs of instant Chinese noodles and investigating bins of mangosteens (a fat, fairly ugly, purple fruit).

While most of what you can buy in Cambodia is priced lower than it is in the United States, brands imported from the United States run expensive. Post’s Great Grains cereal costs roughly $10 (Phnom Penh uses both Cambodia riels and US dollars). British Vogue costs $20. Which is why I’ve become a fan of cheap German cornflakes and Cambodian women’s magazines (for the pictures - I know less than 10 words in Khmer). Just outside the supermarket, pretty women in black uniforms that say “Revlon: Photo ready” sell “Revlon: New York” makeup that’s kept behind glass cases.

It’s late now, and I’ve just opened my door find a bat hanging by its feet from a ceiling light in the hallway. Its little ears twitch as is ducks its head behind webby wings that draw closed like curtains over its body. I start to tiptoe out of my room, clutching a glass that I want to fill up at the water cooler downstairs, and it abruptly swivels towards the faint sound, spreading its black wings and wiggling its ears. It has vampire fangs.

No it doesn’t.

But maybe I’m not actually that thirsty.

The Electric Home Shower

Above the bathtub looms a faded yellow box suspiciously labeled “the electric home shower.” I suspect it has something to do with getting hot water, but I’m unwilling to fiddle with aging electrical equipment suspended over a pool of bathwater and simply eye it warily as I take my cold showers.

Today is my day off (I work a Sunday to Thursday shift) so I ask a motorcycle driver to take me to Wat Phnom (again), from which I plan to find my way to nearby sites. I asked someone yesterday at the office to teach me how to say “sorry” so that I can apologize to the tuk tuk drivers who wait around the Daily staff house and whom I leave disappointed when I give my business to a motorcycle driver. Tired of the jeers of these rejected tuk tuk drivers when I flash my thighs to straddle the motorcycle in a skirt, I now ride side-saddle.

To Wat Phnom it's one long stretch along Norodom Blvd. It’s a left turn from the Daily staff house’s sidestreet, and the driver has to drive a while into incoming traffic before he can worm his way to the right hand side of the road.

We hurdle past the pale-yellow colored concrete walls of the ministry of the interior and the guards who usher black sedans in and out of its entrances. Opposite the ministry are mostly gated communities: big gates conceal neighborhoods of white and yellow villas that are each in turn fenced in with their own gates.

Past the roundabout at independence monument, residential villas dissolve into open-front nail salons where women sit idly filing their nails as they wait for customers, stores selling Khmer formal wear, and dozens of little markets selling drinks, snacks, cigarettes, and "OK" condoms. The markets double as restaurants with fold out tables and plastic chairs set up on the sidewalk.

Near Paragon mall, four crouching boys play with marbles. Further down the street, two men are using a blowtorch to cook a headless pig.

A university with rows and rows of motorcycles parked within its gates has draped an enormous sign over its entrance welcoming its new students from South Korea. Another university hangs a similar banner congratulating its soccer team, which apparently won some Cambodian collegiate cup.

A recent article in the Cambodia Daily profiled an NGO that has sent a soccer tem to South Africa to play in some sort of children’s cup, under the slogan “Don’t play with landmines. Play soccer.”

When traffic stops at an intersection to watch the blinking red lights count down from 40 something, a teenaged boy hops of the sidewalk and weaves through the motorcycles, selling Khmer language newspapers.

I see what I think are two traffic cops parked in plastic, purple chairs just off the road. One looks disinterested, and the other is tinkering with his phone.

There is no such thing as “that motorcycle almost hit me!” in Phnom Penh, because everyone “almost hits” you. There is also no such thing as cutting someone off, tailgating, or speeding. The only rule of the road seems, to me at least, to be: get where you need to go without actually crashing into anyone else. Crossing the road is an expedition. I think I’ve gotten very good at it. By “very good at it” I mean that I have yet to cause injury to either myself or to another party.

In the early afternoon I visit the central market – an enormous yellow-colored dome structure packed with a maze of vendors. Stalls sell grey suits, shirts with “Gucci” spelled in rhinestones on the front, checkered cloth, souvenir elephant figurines, sneakers, electronics, glittery jewelry, decorated curtains, makeup, and bridal magazines.

For whatever reason, most of the tourists seem to be buying underwear: Calvin Klein briefs and lacy, candy-colored thongs.

Vendors are sitting together on little stools eating their lunch and call after me “Lady! Do you need belt? Do you need purse? Do you need Buddha statue?” “Lady,” which connotes “foreign woman,” is what I’m called in Cambodia. Due to the tremendous presence of NGOs, Cambodians are very used to foreigners, but I, because of my height and light skin, hair, and eyes – and, simply, because I’m also young and female - attract significant attention.

On a motorcycle from Central Market to Wat Ounalom, an expansive complex that houses many of the city’s monks and once housed more than 500 before the Khmer Rouge executed most of its inhabitants, I see a huge group of perhaps 20 or 30 tourists. Each of them is riding in a bicycle contraption where the driver sits on a raised seat and peddles, and the passenger sits in a little shaded seat in front of him.

The vehicles make a long procession down the road, and I feel irrationally superior as I speed by them on the back of a motorcycle, sitting side-saddle, helmetless, and with my hands in my lap. Really, these tourists nestled safely in their comfortable seats are spectacularly more intelligent than I am.

Phnom Penh is a city of low-rise buildings with red and occasionally blue tiled roofs. Over most businesses are apartments accessed by outdoor spiral staircases. Women hang their laundry out the windows and on balconies, and in Wat Ounalom the orange cloths monks wear are strung out on clotheslines. Very few buildings are more than four stories tall, and those that are often serve as landmarks. When I want to go home, I tell a motorcycle driver to take me to the nearby several story hotel, the location of which he is more likely to know than, in a city of seemingly randomly numbered streets, the actual street where I live.

All the way home I notice the sagging messes of droopy electric wires that run along the streets. The Cambodian man I met on the plane, A., told me was an electrician in the United States. When I ask him if he plans to find work as an electrician in Phnom Penh he balks at me: “There’s no demand for electricians in Phnom Penh!”